Paul finds a very large, medium brown snake with a pattern on its skin. He is a good 15 feet long and 8 inch diameter. He also finds another animal or thing, but I cannot remember what.
At first I think the snake is dead. But then it starts to group longer and longer from the head end. I tell Paul that. I have a cat who turns into a two to three year old Kelsi. I am afraid the snake will eat her. I have something I can feed the snake.
Scene where my family all leave for a vacation but there is not enough room for me. I stay with the snake. I worry the snake will hurt other people, but it doesn’t. EOD
This dream was a bit fuzzy and hard to bring back details. I have not been remembering dreams for a while. Paul and I are recently back from our trip to Winslow and Monument Valley. I didn’t sleep well the night before and got into my OCD thinking about Kevin. I asked Wisdom for what I needed.
In the past Mittens (cat) and Kelsi have represented my soul. Kevin wrote on my birthday another blame and shame text. I responded. This is what I wrote:
Dear Kevin, I am sorry you are so angry at me. I hope some day you can forgive me. I also have been angry at you for cutting me/us off and I work at forgiving you . It seems you want me to admit how wrong I’ve been and I want you to admit how unfair you have been. We have talked many times without catharsis /resolution. I love and care about you as well as your family. And I hope some day we can be reconciled. However, I think we need some help to do this. I suggest finding a neutral, third person, who is experience in mediation to help us. Please have a think about this. (I wrote this on 4/15/25 and have not heard back)
The snake could represent my growth towards self-love.
I worked this dream with Bryn and Susan. Here is what I wrote: If this were my dream, my male/action part of my psyche lets the snake out of some enclosure. It is a medium, brown color-the color of earth and nature. It is very large-larger than a boa. It starts to grow larger. I am not afraid of it hurting me, but I am afraid of it eating Mittens(cat)/young Kelsi-a part of me that is vulnerable. I feed the snake some food that satisfies its hunger. Food is a basic need. Once that is satisfied, other needs can be satisfied. My family goes on a vacation and there is not enough room for me. I am not upset about this. Maybe I need more room for myself right now. I need time to get to know this snake/life force. It is time to do my inner work and not to be distracted from that. I need to get stronger and not so influenced by what others think and to stop doubting myself. I need a balance. I want to integrate my shadow parts, but not give my personal power away.
