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My sister, Chris, has a little, three year old named Olga. She goes to a daycare. My cousin, Johnny, volunteers there. I come to visit Olga. Olga and five or six other children are playing in the water in a medium sized lake. This lake is behind the daycare person’s house.

I play with Olga. We play a rescue game where I rescue her when she goes under water. I then go off on my own, coming back a little while later. Everyone is now getting out of the water. I say, “Where is Olga?” I see a dark spot under the water. One of the children dives down, comes back and says it is Olga. I go and get Olga and carry her to the house. I do mouth to mouth on Olga for a long time. She is dead. I talk to the day care woman saying we need to call 911. She says Olga is dead and why pay $40. (charge if medical people come). I am devastated. I feel guilty. I should not have gone off even though it was not my responsibility to watch the kids.

I go to the basement to take a shower. There is just a shower head on the wall of a mostly unfinished basement. There isn’t a toilet. There is no towel so I can’t shower.

Later in the night/early morning I have this dream: I am again in the water with the kids and Olga is under water. This time I do rescue her and she is fine.

Daynotes: I am still having a challenge with my thoughts and feelings about Kevin wanting to cut Paul and I off from him and the grandkids. I find it interesting that I have the second dream and “correct” the first dream. This seems positive. Chris can be my spiritual/sensitive part. Maybe Olga is my inner child that needs to be rescued from these strong emotions I am feeling.

If Chris in the dream represents Chris, she is having a biopsy on a mass on her breast on Monday.

1. I am at an elementary school that is about to get over for the day. I wander around the playground. I go into a two room playhouse that is on the playground. I hang out there for awhile. In one of the rooms, there is a fireplace and it is set up for starting a fire-logs, etc. There is an adult woman in the playhouse that works at the school. I ask her when school is out. She says two minutes.

I go out of the playhouse. Older kids, maybe 6th graders, come out onto the playground. In this one area, there are three fire pits with logs, etc. ready to start a fire.The 6th graders light all three fires.I ask a girl who gets the fires ready for them. She looks at a sign nearby and says it’s so and so ranch (can’t remember). She is like a bored teenager. I move on. I see a classes of kids lined up in a few rows.

2. Denise’s dad is helping me find land. He sends me an email about some land. I see Denise and ask her how old her father is. She says he is 99 years old. She implies that he doesn’t really know what he is doing.

3. Two images: A round, gold watch like one you would have on a chain-like in the old days. It looks new. I get it when I finish? Then I see a round pink watch just like the gold one. I don’t know where I am. I think I am outside and I see the watches on the ground.

Daynotes: Not sleeping well all night because of Kevin cutting us off. I get up at night and journal, do a meditation and/or read. I wake up in the middle of the night and have mental OCD. I also have many emotions from anger to grief. I am going to go to an Alanon meeting on Sunday night. I need support.

(hard dream to bring back) There are two babies. One is tucked under some place on the floor. The other is not.

A young girl of 10-12 years old puts turquoise color in her hair and changes its style. She is with a group of people. Everyone notices her hair. She likes it very much.