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There is a festival. There are two buses of 2nd graders who arrive. I am with an older woman. We draw a picture of four, young guys who are well known musicians. Five, young guys come to look at it. They seem somber. They then walk away across this park. The last guy turns and the back of him is a small tree with yellow leaves. I get my camera and try to catch up with them. I see the other guys, but can no longer see the tree man. I am disappointed.

Daynotes: Rough Day. Kevin called and said how we/I messed up again. 1. Not giving Markus equal time/attention, 2. Didn’t come to meet Markus until he was 10 months old, 3. Not giving Markus as many presents as Rowan when he was a baby. 4. Not giving Markus an age appropriate gift this time. 5. Not knowing Antonia. 6. Says that he does not havpe good boundaries with us. 7. Lastly, he is stopping story time.

I said it feels like punishment and it doesn’t solve the problem. He is not only hurting us/me, but also the kids. I am sad, grieving, angry, hurt.

I am sitting in front of a group of people in a small auditorium-similar to a gym. Nancy and another person are to my right closer to the group. They are trying to show a slide show about Nancy. I am in an animal costume that has brown fur and short horns. I sit in front of the group with my right arm slung casually across the back of the chair I am on.

There is a scene where Nancy has collected all these large conch shells. She is on a beach. She puts them in a box.

Back to the slide show….Nancy asks me for help with the slide show. She is trying to find a specific group of slides. I go over to her thinking I can’t do much to help. I keep pushing a fast forward button on this tape recorder. There is scene after scene of Nancy on some adventure; usually with a friend. I figure we will eventually fast forward to the part that she wants to show the group. It is a bit frustrating. However, it is also fun to see all the fun adventures she had.

Daynotes: flew from Seattle to Tucson yesterday after a visit with Kevin and his family.

This dream feels like a visit from Nancy telling me she is doing fine and is reviewing her life and is grateful.

(I left my dream notebook in Mn. This is what I remember about this dream)

I am with a group of people. We are outside in nature. Two or three people are in charge of a game similar to tag. In this game people try and stay away from this white horse who chases them. If they get caught they get on the ground, get into a fetal position and the horse licks them all over. At one point, I am with the people in charge and see a woman get caught and get licked all over. Most of the time I am in the game.

My sister, Becky, is part of the group. I see her a couple of times. I don’t know if she sees me. At one point, we are both in a house. She is laying down, reading and book and looks very relaxed. The horse is coming and I am nervous. I run down the stairs into the basement and out the door. I find a shallow cave and get into it with my back to the opening. I am laying down, holding perfectly still so the horse will not know I am there.

Feelings: exciting and scary

I worked this dream with Kathleen from S. Carolina. I went back into the dream and decided to get out of the cave. I stood up and connected with the horse by petting its nose, etc. I then got on the horse and we went off into a lovely meadow with wild flowers. I felt that I connected with my personal power.

We had a nice visit with Kevin and Family. Antonia was a good hostess. However, again, (same thing as last May) we get a phone call from Kevin saying how we messed up by not giving Markus as much attention as Rowan. I said I am sorry he feels that way, because that wasn’t my intention and that I did play a lot with Markus. He says Antonia thinks he does not have good boundaries with Paul and I. (I have always thought he doesn’t have good boundaries with Antonia). He felt he didn’t say things that bothered him at the time of our visit. He brought up that he felt I was uncomfortable and wished he would have addressed it at the time. I said that I feel he is on eggshells when we visit. The talk went ok. until he dropped the bombshell that he wants to stop story time and have some separation from us! This breaks my heart. I said that it feels like a punishment, that separation will not solve the problem and it not only hurts us, but his boys. I will say more at Dreamsters.

When we got the call this time, I did not crumble, did not feel this was my fault in any way. This is progress. So, I think this dream was a precognitive/preparation for his phone call. I am owning my personal power. (not that I am fine about what is happening. I am working on the emotional fallout from it).