(Tuesday, November 05, 2019) waxing gibbous moon Pisces / tarot Wheel of Fortune
This dream has powerful physical experiences that continue to vibrate as I awaken:
I am lying on a mattress, dreaming, in a temporary, single bed. The bed feels connected to Bonnie, although she is not in my dream. Perhaps this is her guest room, or a room from one of our retreats.
I begin to experience a wild energy shift in my body. I move from the small bed and crouch on my knees and elbows, in a crawling position. My forehead touches the white stone floor that has a ceiling-style pebbly surface, reminiscent of the 1960s. Electrical waves flow into my back and shake me through and through. It feels like an atomic spiritual awakening, not like a hissing kundalini snake slithering up my spine. A nuclear blast.
I realize that if I make sexual contact with Chris, I can heal him. But he does not want to be healed or touched. He is far away, only half-present in the physical world. Even so, when I wake up I feel the remnants of orgasm in my vagina.