Journal: Birth Chart

(Thursday, February 26, 2026) waxing gibbous moon Cancer

Last night I listened to Katherine Bell’s podcast (Dream Journal). She interviewed Madi Murphy, who does both astrology and dreamwork. Her website is called CosmicRx and I had a tiny, free astrology reading done online. Here are her results from my birthdate:

I AM A REBEL, Taurus Sun
BUT MY EMOTIONS ARE RATHER FIERCE, Aries Moon
I THINK IN A MEASURED WAY, Mercury in Taurus
BUT EXPRESS MY ENERGY IN A RESTLESS WAY, Mars in Gemini
IN LOVE, I SEEK LOYALTY, Venus in Taurus
MY ROLE IN THE WORLD IS THE HEALER, Cancer Rising

Last year my astrologer Deb O. called out Chiron in my eighth chart. She believes I have been a “wounded healer” for many generations. Madi’s website also states that Pisces at my Midheaven is about healing and art and intuition. Madi says she heals people in her dreams. I am no physician, but I did have a dream a few years ago on the night people were killed in a mass-shooting. They flew towards me, in outer space, begging for me to heal their horrific trauma. Maybe sharing what Jeanne G. calls my “cosmic dreams” can have healing elements for some.

Synchronicity: my aunt who died at 96 was Mary Murphy. She was an herbalist. She began organic gardening/farming in the 1950s.

2/23/26 I Love My Body

I had a lot of short dreams last night. One of them is with Dee and Ed. This is the 3rd time they have come into my dreams.

I am in a small “Roman” bath with Dee and then Ed joins us. We are all nude. Dee gets up and grabs a towel and starts to get out of the bath. I do not have a towel. This feels like the bath belongs to Dee and Ed. Dee gets me a towel. I am younger and feel good about my body. I do not feel self conscious getting out of the water where Ed can see me nude.

This is the third Dream I have had in March with Dee and Ed in it. The first dream was: How Did the Bridge Get There? The second dream was: The Canoes. I worked these three dreams with Kathleen and Shaney. This is what I wrote and I will summarize ideas I got from Kathleen and Shaney.

If this were my dream, I am with Dee and Ed, my positive feminine and masculine energies. I feel I can trust them completely. I am to stay at their casita, a small house in the backyard of their place. A house can represent my psyche. In a casita there is usually just one room other than the bathroom. It is a guest house. Dee, my feminine, is pointing out a bridge behind the casita in the woods and she doesn’t know how it got there. A bridge connects one side to another and usually goes over an obstacle. This bridge doesn’t do that. It runs parallel to the back of the casita and then has two short sides. It is about 4 feet above the ground. It does have a railing, but now stairs. It is made of wood. The bridge (Shaney) may represent a connection from my old life now to a new life, but it is in transition and is not complete and it is above the ground, so it could represent having some perspective. Dee says she cleans the casita periodically though in the dream it seems clean enough. Do I need some cleaning out of some old beliefs/complexes?

The second dream has two canoes. These could represent Paul and I. Dee and Ed have put them on the other side of the lake. The goal is to get to the canoes, but it is a challenge. We are on the other side from the canoes. We are first driving on a rough road, then Paul and I have trouble breathing and finally, we have to swim across the lake to get to the canoes. Canoes are self propelled-no motors. The one in the back steers. They are vehicles used on water usually for recreation, but now a necessity? The canoe could not represent a necessity to deal with emotions (water) and that I have to do more and more of the steering. However, I have support (Dee, Ed, and my unknown woman (guide?)

The part in the dream when the masseuse starts to touch my private parts brought up how I feel now about telling people about Paul’s memory issues. It is a private subject for him as well as me. I feel a bit like I am betraying his privacy when I have to tell, for instance, the dentist he went to last week, that he has memory issues and can’t answer his questions.

Swimming across the lake is even more of an effort to move through the water-very self-propelled. It is one stroke at a time.

Lastly, I am in a Roman bath with Dee and Ed. In waking life, a Roman bath is a communal experience. A bath is a cleansing as well as a relaxation. We are all nude. I feel very comfortable in my body and do not feel awkward being nude with Dee and Ed. This feels very freeing.

Shaney brought up that all three dreams have water in them: a shower, a lake and a bath. To do with emotions? Cleansing? Kathleen felt that the bath was womb-like-a rebirth? The expression, Not out of the woods yet, goes with the first dream with the bridge in the woods. I came up with the idea of moving full time to AZ and buy a place with a casita so we could have a live in person help me with Paul as his dementia worsens. I think this dream came first.

2/22/26. Paul Abandons Me

Paul and I are younger. We drive to a place in the Minnetonka Lake area. Paul is driving. The clouds are beautiful. They “shoot light” from their tops. I try to get a photo, but cannot. We get to a person’s house to pick up something from the guy’s father that Paul knew in the past. It is made of cloth, but I don’t know what it is. The guy knows who Paul is. We stay for awhile. The guy, years ago, when he was in Bali was bitten on the face by a shark. He has a scare. A woman is around. She rolls across the floor for her exercise. The guy’s wife is around and is nice.

Then I see a small dog and a girl about 12-13 years old. I recognize the dog from my previous dream where I was working at a school and the dog was there. The girl explains that the dog belongs to a guy who is out of town and she/they are taking care of it. I feel sorry for the dog. It is a sweet dog.

Then Paul is gone. It is night. I go outside and look for the car and it is gone. Everyone runs around, looking for a phone to call him. I look in my purse and I do not have my cell phone. Someone does and calls Paul. He comes back. I tell the man with the shark bite that Paul has memory issues. Paul is driving a convertible and has put the top down.

We drive awaay and then stop in Mound. We see these garish, run down apartments that are about 3-4 stories high. We stop at a party There is a guy’s daughter who made and plays this instrument that has these white tubes. I go to look for Paul. Again he is gone. Tow guys come and start to rape me. I wake up. A nightmare!

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