Category: Bonnie

There are six women: Denise, Jeanne, three other women, and I. We do a ritual. Afterwards, I am an observer and part of the group. Two women are on the bottom on the ground. Then two women pile on top of them going the opposite direction. Then the last two women get on top going the opposite direction. After that the bottom women slide out, then the ones in the middle and then the ones on top.

Then my job is to clandestinely take these scrolls/posters from my house and mail them. I cannot get caught. I almost get caught once. I pretend to go for a walk. I move on the ground like a snake away from my house. At this time, I am the scroll/poster. It is in the fall and I worry about the scrolls/posters getting wet. When I get far enough away, I get up and walk and am now separate from the scroll/poster. I am successful. I get to the post office. I am mailing each scroll/poster back to its owner.

I had this dream at Kelsi and Keenan’s house. This was the first time we stayed at their house.

I am outside with a small group of men and women. We are all in our 50’s. I am watching Freya. She is my granddaughter. In waking life she is almost 17 months old. In the dream she is around nine months old. In waking life she is walking. In the dream she crawls. The group and I are sitting on a lawn, talking. I am attracted to a man I am talking with. I look up and see Freya has crawled down the sidewalk and is about to crawl across the road. I quickly get up and get her.

I am taking care of Freya until 11:00 at night because Kelsi has to work until then. (my daughter and Freya’s mom). There is a scene where Kelsi and I are told the right door to enter into the small office where she works.

I worked this dream with my dream group up north. This is what I wrote: If this were my dream, I am feeling happy, free (no boundaries) talking with an attractive man which is enjoyable. I am also responsible for Freya. Freya is young and doesn’t know the dangers of the world. If she were apart of me, what dangers am I oblivious about? I do go and “rescue” her, keep her safe. I am now with Kelsi at her work. We are guided to go in the correct door. A door could represent a transition. I am taking care of Freya to 11:00 p.m. (in this part of the dream, I am just with Kelsi at work and not with Freya). I am thinking about the expression: The Eleventh Hour, which means the latest possible time before it is too late. Kelsi has been in a dangerous job because of mentally ill clients that are their own guardians and are not on their medication. One has been violent to a worker and has destroyed property at the home and is now in jail. I am wondering if this dream has to do with Kelsi getting another job soon. I am my 50’s in my dream. This, to me, is the prime of life. I have been supporting Kelsi in her transition.

The other thought that came up with the rest of the group is that this dream is a confirmation for me. I am a good mother and grandmother. After Kevin cut me off, and even before that, I lost confidence in myself.

Dan is kidnapped. I am in an apartment with his wife (not Edi). We hear him yelling for help. It’s like he is caught in the wall between the apartments. I go next door. The apartment door is open. The people who live there are mostly moved out. There are just some of their belongings in the apartment. I yell and yell for Dan.

Later, my dad, siblings and I find out he was taken to India and forced to work at some physical labor. We go there. My Dad is driving. We get out of the car when we find him and give him a hug. I sit in the drivers seat after Dad gets out for a while and then get out and hug Dan. He is about 30 years old. He doesn’t look like waking life Dan. I tell him how we tried to find him. It is a relief.

I worked this dream with Kathleen and Shaney. Here is what I wrote: If this were my dream, I am Dan’s wife, and Dan. At first I am Edi and hear Dan (me call for help). I am scared for Dan but I am too “shocked and scared” and do not take any action. Bonnie takes action and looks for Dan. Now I am Dan. I am stuck in a wall, a structure that divides two spaces; spaces are apartments-“a part”- two different ways of looking at something? I yell for help. I need help. Bonnie can’t find me. I am then taken to India, a spiritual place, and made to do forced labor. I am forced to look at my spiritual side, beliefs, etc, not just my emotional/ psychological side. This is when my family of origin, people who know me the best and love me unconditionally come to rescue me.

Maybe this family of origin are parts of me that are coming together. One is the male authority (Dad) and one, Bonnie, is the female part of me. My female is receptive and my male is active and they are helping the dream ego take action. (as Bonnie, to not think so much about me as about Kevin and what he is going through. To be present. I can’t solve his challenges, but just be there as my extended family is in the dream)

Kathleen became the couple who owned the apartment next door. What stood out was if they had helped Kevin, he would never have had the chance to go to India. Shaney said my inner conflict is not being allowed to be there for Kevin.